things i have written, philosophies i identify with, and things you should know.
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and i don’t really know why
my heart pumps out hemoglobin
twice as fast
thrice as fast
in accordance with each time
my calculus professor says
my name in passing:
damn
i’m a broken formula
i have asymptotes in my hands and
i can’t catch the
slippery logarithms
who buzz around my fingers
though i swat at them like bees,
and my head is full of vectors
going in directions
that don’t exist
and sir,
i cant remember
how to use the dot product
to solve them,
i don’t know
how to breathe with
i can’t breathe with
these limits in my throat now
because i’ve swallowed all the
formulas
and
i feel
my heart swelling
with the weight (with the mass)
of so many theorems
but i don’t even know how
heavy they are
because whether in newtons
or kilograms
they shrink infinitely,
dissolving in acid:
within me
i will soon destroy them
and sir,
how do i isolate x
when the axis is dotted down my spine
with freckles
and the y component
hides beneath my ribs?
she, a part of me
is so good at isolation
that she withholds it from
poor x
and digs even deeper into my skin
sir,
i exist on the R3 plane
but you see through
me like i’m 2 dimensional:
you have studied
functions and vectors
for years
for years
and it is evident to you
that pythagoras gave me the
wrong
dimensions
and pascal
left no room for
me on his triangle
i am error code 2 on your calculator
i am undefined
nobody wrote Q.E.D.
after solving me
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